Forgot I had a Blog

So, here I am after how long?
So silly of me..after several weeks of everyone telling me I should have a Blog, I begin to set one up, only to find that I already had one. My friend Jessica tried to remind me that I already had one a few days back when I shared that I wanted to start one. So, Here I am again, starting one. Can't believe I did this so long ago. The photo of Africa the first time in 2008 and now it is after my third time to Kenya and so much can be told...some New..some Old..but, much remembered. My heart is still full of memories of each time, each person and each wonderful place god has taken me. I Sing Praises to his name for the way he has opened doors and I am Thankful that I walked through them. With HIM. Many times I look back and think ...What IF....What IF I hadn't. We all have A WHAT IF....don't we? What if I had done this? What if I hadn't done that? What if I do this wrong? What if I this...what if I that. (i,i.i) And then there is the Me thing. What is wrong with ME? Why Me? Let ME this, let ME that. ME,ME,ME (this excludes the cute name my grandson calls me, MIMI, which is spelled different, so doesn't count) What comes to my mind now, after being to Kenya for the 3rd time is.... Well, What IF Christ had not died for ME! What IF he questioned and didn't do what he was purposed to do. What IF....WhAT IF he had decided I wasn't worth it. Why would he die for ME? Why should he? I did this, I did that? Again with the I Thing. Can I ever get over myself and just follow HIM? Christ died that I might be free...when I am always on my mind, my heart.. where is HE? Am I Free if I am consumed by myself? All by myself. Now that's interesting..locked up in myself. That doesn't seem free. Locked UP with myself? Freedom is in Christ. How can that be? If I belong to HIM and I let him show Me who He is then I would have to follow HIM and HIS lead. NO more ME, MYSELF and I. Say goodby to myself? Is that possible? All things are possible through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. It's HIM in ME! Not me alone. So then, that settles it....Goodby self...Hello ME.